Wow.
In a new interview with Us Weekly, Aaron Carter revealed he’s always thought he was going to die by the time he was 30 years old. That is so terribly heartbreaking.
The singer — who is 30 now — admitted to the outlet:
“I thought I would die by 30. Even when I was 13, 14, I thought, ‘Oh, my God. I’m going to die.'”
After a series of highly-publicized unfortunate events that happened over the summer (arrests, his dad’s passing, and a breakup), Nick Carter‘s little brother came close.
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Now, after a 90-day treatment, Aaron is feeling recharged:
“Life, it was pretty tough. I dealt with a lot of trauma, a lot of loss, a lot of loneliness. I just felt like I needed to get away. I’ve been burnt. My goal is to be the phoenix that rises from the ashes.”
When asked about making it to 30, the troubled star said:
“I’m shocked. It’s time to act like a frickin’ adult. I have new aspirations. All of those require my attention for music, and I’m telling you, I love in the studio. It’s the safest place for my and very therapeutic.”
He added of creating music:
“I’m kind of like Taylor Swift. I produce music when I feel depressed. It’s just my way out, my way of resting my mind. That’s how all these songs came about. They’re about ex-girlfriend that didn’t work out. I wrote songs about them while I was with them, trying to get them to understand what they were doing to me.”
Aaron — who entered rehab weighing 115 pounds — is now up to 162. Yas!
The former child star said of his struggles that got him there:
“I have post-traumatic stress disorder. I had a different-style upbringing. I wasn’t able to go to school, have normal friends. I wasn’t allowed to have friends over. They had to sign waivers that said if they killed themselves, we weren’t responsible. I was always working and flying to different countries. One minute my dancer’s my tutor and the next minute my grandma is my tutor. I was lonely even though I was performing for millions of people.”
And despite reports, Aaron insisted drugs didn’t have anything to do with his decision to seek treatment:
“I never abused medication. They did a hair-follicle test and found oxycodone, Xanax and Klonopin. But that’s because I got punched in the jaw by my drummer, and I had a fractured jaw. I had seven ulcers, and I couldn’t do anything about it. Then I went to a wellness center and they knew exactly how to prescribe me -medications that are going to take care of certain things. I go through a lot of pain, and my pain is reflected in my music.”
We’re just hoping he can stay on the straight and narrow! Good luck, bb!
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